Friday, January 12, 2007

i don't know

My body is aching today. I usually say I like this kind of ache, because I know it's the good kind, where I worked it hard at the gym and therefore, good results should come of this. But today, I feel pissed off that my body is sore. My heart is aching, and I don't want any additional soreness, on top of that. I'm whining, complaining, and not thinking about any positives. That's not really like me, and then that makes me feel bad. It's Friday, and I've been looking forward to the end of the week, well, all week. I get a long weekend and I've been craving that for the past five days. But I have a feeling of indifferance tooday. I don't know what I want. I'm a little hungry, but I don't want anything in the cabinets. I am tired but I can't sleep. I think I want to listen to music, but then I end up turning it down low in the car, because it's too much noise. I go back and forth between sad songs, hard, angry songs, rock, and rap. I don't want any of it. I want to talk on the phone to my friends, but I end up starting to call and then hanging up. I think I want a glass of orange juice, but I take a sip and dump the rest. I don't like to complain, and be all woe is me. Things could be worse. I usually have the ability to look at the glass as half full, on the bright side of things. But I don't even want to do that right now. I wish I was back in bed.

5 comments:

e.b. said...

I am so frequently a prisoner of my own indecision. I whine about it but really there is nothing anyone can do, including myself.

brooke alexandra said...

"I don't know", my excuse for everything. And being indecisive, story of my life.

Aaron said...

You can join me on the couch as I scroll endlessly through the channels. :D

Ally said...

I hope you had a relaxing and rejuvenating long weekend; it sounds like you needed one.

Joy said...

A Brooke after my own heart...it's okay, I'll get better.